March 21st, 2008

Today is Good Friday.
There are so many things I want to say but no words come out.

I sat here thinking to myself.
I didn't want anyone to bother me.
I couldn't help but stare into the sky, wondering if there is another me...
A better me? A more worst me? A taller, a thinner, a fatter me?
Whatever it is is out of my control.
I felt a warm wrap around me as if the world is trying to comfort me for all I've been doing.
I've been so busy and I've been sick.
I miss my birthday party because I was sick.
My health had never been the best and somehow 'it' choose to make it a little worst this year.
Somehow I'm not mad...
I have learnt how to be patience.
If 'it' choose to make it worst I still have to live.
Somehow maybe 'it' sees that I'm not giving up and I'm learning along the way.
Today I felt someone wrapping their arms around me... giving me hugs,
And making me feel as if I'm not fighting this battle alone.
I should be sleeping, but I really wish to type a blog at least once.
Life is a journey, some has it harder and some has it easier...
But in the end we all reach to the same place.
If there is recarnation then our next life would be vice versa of this one.
There are so many people I miss and so many people I love.
There are sooo many Chinese songs I've been listening to in the past month.
It has helped me understand even more.
Anyways, whoever is listening...
Life is short, achieve as much as you can in this short period.
I'm slow, but I'm fast.
I've learnt to look at the big picture instead of the current time.
I've learnt what is best for me and everyone that I value in my heart.
What is best for me is when I am successful and is able to help out people around me.
But if I worry only about myself then I'd be self-fish.
I succeed not just for me but for the benefit of the ones close to me.

I've changed the song on my blog.
Hope you'll like it.
Sorry if you guys don't understand Chinese...
Hopefully soon I'll be able to post the lyrics and the meaning.
I need to build my book list so everyone would be able to see what I'm currently reading.